Even when I say this
I see a cloud necklaced with fire.
I see people melting like tears.
released February 27, 2026
https://schurer.bandcamp.com/album/a-song-for-eliane-after-she-is-dead
https://berndschurer.bandcamp.com/album/janus
Janus is the ancient Roman god of beginnings, endings, transitions, doorways, and time, famously depicted with two faces looking in opposite directions—one to the past, one to the future. He oversees gates, passages, and the start of new cycles, making him crucial for new year celebrations (January is named after him) and rites of passage like weddings and births, symbolizing movement between states. Romans invoked him first in rituals, viewing him as a guardian of all transitions, from daily life to war and peace.
A Janus Bunch oscillator state comprises two distinct phases. The model can describe synchronisation between internal phases and external oscillators by coupling both internally and externally. This enables the phases to exhibit fascinating and intricate movements. Some of these compositions use networks of so-called Janus Oscillators as a reservoir of dynamic patterns. These patterns are audified by using auditory-display techniques coupled to dynamical FM/RM Synthesis algorithms organized in a 2-dimensional plane (each oscillator has several arbitrary XY coordinates).
released January 4, 2026
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Some experimental philosophical thoughts on “The Narrow.” started out as a conversation with ChatGPT about the Tritone Paradox in my computer music composition, Lacanian Sieve.
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When a piece commits to one interval as its total structural horizon, the listener is placed in a space where symbolic differentiation is strictly limited.
The Symbolic (in Lacanian terms) becomes a single axis—a filtration of all musical possibility through one cut, one relation, one “law.”
Psychologically, this produces:
This can be described as epistemic narrowness: the world is small, but infinitely deep.
The tritone carries centuries of ambiguity and tension, but without relying on tonal baggage you can emphasize its structural role: it is an interval that never fully relaxes.
When it becomes the only possible gesture, a paradox emerges: the tension is constant, yet endlessly mutating.
This shapes the emotional field in the following ways:
You could describe this as affective torsion: the piece bends the listener inward rather than outward.
A system rooted in a single interval, especially a dissonant and “unplaceable” one like the tritone, can be heard as a form of compulsion to repeat.
Not repetition of identity, but repetition of difference within sameness—a hallmark of the unconscious.
This resonates with:
You can say:
The music stages the psyche encountering an impossible limit, again and again, as if attempting to master it—but never doing so.
Computer music often generates topologies rather than narratives.
If the tritone is the only generative relation, the topology becomes narrow:
Emotionally, this evokes:
You might call this spatialized affect: the emotional state is coextensive with the geometry of the interval.
By restricting the entire musical universe to tritone variations, the piece refuses abundance in favor of rigor, discipline, and radical minimality.
Psychologically, this can be interpreted as:
This narrowness becomes ascetic, almost monastic—but with an underlying violence.
Here the key is the infinite in tension with the narrow.
Because the tritone is the only interval, but it appears in limitless permutation:
Psychically, this mirrors:
The Narrow can be found here:
https://schurer.bandcamp.com/album/the-narrow
#computermusic #thenarrow #berndschurer
graphic score for The Narrow, 3rd movement.
**Trypophobia** is an aversion to the sight of repetitive patterns or clusters of small holes and bumps.
Materialised through graphical sound synthesis ideas developed by Iannis Xenkis’ UPIC system.
https://schurer.bandcamp.com/album/trypomania
#innoi #farewell
Netochka Nezvanova & Eliane Radigue | In Spirit
https://schurer.bandcamp.com/album/as-if
To will means to keep oneself in a state of exasper-
ation and fever at any cost. The effort is exhausting,
nor does it appear that man can sustain it indefinitely.
To believe it is his responsibility to transcend his
condition and tend toward that of the superman is to
forget that he has trouble enough sustaining himself
as man, and that he succeeds only by straining his
will, that mainspring, to the maximum. And the will,
which contains a suspect and even disastrous prin-
ciple, turns against those who abuse it. To will is not
natural-or more exactly, one must will just enough
to live; as soon as one wills less than that, or more,
one either breaks down or runs down. If lack of will
is a disease, the will itself is another, and a much
worse one, for it is from the will and its excesses
rather than from its failures that all man’s miseries
derive. But if he already wills to excess in his present
state, what will become of him once he accedes to
the rank of superman? He will doubtless explode and
fall back upon himself. So that it is by a grandiose
detour that he will then be led to fall out of time in
order to enter the infra-eternity, ineluctable conclu-
sion where it matters little, ultimately, whether he
arrives by decay or by disaster.
We owe the quasi-totality of our discoveries to our
violences, to the exacerbation of our disequilibrium.
Even God, insofar as he intrigues us, is not to be
found in our most intimate depths, but rather at the
exterior limit of our fever, at the precise point where,
our rage coIliding with his, a shock results, an encounter
that is equally ruinous for him and for us. Stricken
with the malediction attached to acts, the violent man
does nor force his nature, does not go beyond himself,
except to furiously re-enter, as aggressor, followed by
his enterprises, which come to punish him for having
raised them. There is no work that does not return
against its author: the poem crushes the poet, the
system the philosopher, the event the man of action.
S ome form of self-destruction, responding to his
vocation and accomplishing it, is at work in the core
of history; only he saves himself who sacrifices gift s
and talents in order that, disengaged from his quality
as a man, he is able to strut into being. If I aspire to
a metaphysical career there is no price at which I am
able to protect my identity, however minute are the
residues that remain, it is necessary that I liquidate
them; just as, on the contrary, if I adventure into a
role in history, the task that I take upon myself has to
exasperate my faculties to the point where I splinter
with them. One always perishes by the self that one
assumes: to bear a name is to claim an exact mode
of collapse.
#schurer #computermusic #light #electronic
Finisterre
I don’t understand why we must do things in this world, why we
must have friends and aspirations, hopes and dreams. Wouldn’t
it be better to retreat to a faraway corner of the world, where all
its noise and complications would be heard no more?
Then we could renounce culture and ambitions; we would lose everything
and gain nothing; for what is there to be gained from this
world?
There are people to whom gain is unimportant, who are
hopelessly unhappy and lonely.
We are so closed to one another! And yet, were we to be totally open to each other, reading into
the depths of our souls, how much of our destiny would we see?
We are so lonely in life that we must ask ourselves if the loneliness
of dying is not a symbol of our human existence. Can there
be any consolation at the last moment? This willingness to live
and die in society is a mark of great deficiency. It is a thousand
times preferable to die somewhere alone and abandoned so that
you can die without melodramatic posturing, unseen by anyone.
I despise people who on their deathbed master themselves and
adopt a pose in order to impress. Tears do not burn except in solitude.
Those who ask to be surrounded by friends when they die
do so out of fear and inability to live their final moments alone.
They want to forget death at the moment of death. They lack infinite
heroism. Why don’t they lock their door and suffer those
maddening sensations with a lucidity and a fear beyond all
limits?
We are so isolated from everything.
But isn’t everything equally inaccessible to us?
The deepest and most organic death is death in solitude,
when even light becomes a principle of death.
In such moments you will be severed from life, from love, smiles,
friends and even from death. And you will ask yourself if there is
anything besides the nothingness of the world and your own
nothingness.
Netockas´ Thoughts while reading <the theory of the solitary sailor>, Gilles. Grelet, June 2024
#nn #solitudes
[mysteria] The tangent circle plus gendyN VII
https://heterophenomenological.net/blog/hell2.html
For eight computer- controlled solenoids, medical tuning forks and eight digitally controlled sine-wave- oscillators. Made with SuperCollider. Also, worship The Glitch.
[release] TAGE OHNE STUNDEN
#nothingness242
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Formales Gewissen
Adressen unmöglicher Orte
Tage ohne Stunden
3 sountracks
was performed by Bo Wiget on Cello. Re-Synthesis on Computer by Bernd Schurer.
was performed by Iva Sanjek on Ondes Martenot and Spring Reverb. Composed and assembled on Computer by Bernd Schurer.
was performed by Iva Sanjek on Ondes Martenot. Granular Re-Synthesis and algorithmic composition by Bernd Schurer.
Composed for Installation works by and for Yves Netzhammer, 2013, 2014, 2015.
Nothing is lost, all is found.
Published November 2022.
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Lautaggregat Redux (Quadophonic Version)
Electroacoustic Computer Music Diffusion
For Carlfriedrich Claus and Trevor Wishart, 2018
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Computer based Waveset-Analysis, Decomposition, Re-synthesis and Re-Spatialization based on Ideas of Carlfreidrich Claus’ “Lautaggregat”, binaural Version, produced at WDR Studio Cologne 1993, originally re-synthesized for Radiophonic Spaces 2018 exhibition at HKW, Berlin.
Carlfriedrich Claus war ein deutscher avantgardistischer Künstler auf den Gebieten der Schriftgrafik, der Visuellen und Konkreten Poesie sowie der Lautpoesie. Er schuf ein Gesamtwerk von mehreren hundert Tonbandkassetten mit Artikulationen, Sprachblättern, Handzeichnungen, Büchern, Druckgrafiken, Briefen und anderem mehr.
Seine Arbeiten hatten den Anspruch, den Rezipienten ganzheitlich zu fordern. Seine Arbeiten können stets als ein Selbstexperiment erfasst werden. Zu Beginn schrieb Claus konkrete Gedichte auf der Schreibmaschine. Diese Lyrik hatte u. a. Natur und Zeit zum Thema. Später werden die Motive „Klang“ und „Vibration“ wichtig und er schrieb mit der Hand. Claus Literatur ist experimentell und kann nicht einfach kategorisiert werden. Beim Anfertigen seiner „Sprachblätter“ oder auch „Vibrationstexte“ artikulierte er gleichzeitig, sodass es quasi ein Werk auf mehreren Ebenen darstellt.
In Bernd Schurer’s Arbeit “Lautaggregat Redux” (bezogen auf die Originalaufnahmen eines 1993 beim WDR in Auftrag gegebenen radiophonen / räumlichen Hörstücks in Binauraltechnik) wird eine akustische Lupe aufgebaut, welche reziprok mit den Eigenheiten in der Sprache und den Lauten der Komposition mit erweiterten Methoden zu Analyse, Dekomposition und Resynthese des Stücks arbeitet. Weil teils Werke von Carlfriedrich Claus für den Rezipienten ohne Lupe kaum lesbar waren, weigerte er sich bis in die 1990er Jahre, seine Werke vergrößert ausstellen zu lassen. (source: WPD)
Schurer’s Arbeit vergrössert die Nuancen dieser Arbeit in der akustischen Ebene, in dem er die Originalaufnahmen mit Techniken der Analyse, den Wavesets (eine von Trevor Wishart vorgeschlagene Methode zur granularen Analyse bei Nulldurchgängen digitaler Audiodateien), deren Resynthese und neu geschaffener, quadrophonischer Verräumlichung anbietet und sie gleichzeitig in einem mikrosonischen Raum als eine eigene Variante des Selbstexperiments einer “komplizierten” auditorischen Artikulation aufführt.
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Zürich, 7.1.2019, from 19h – Registration only _ Januarloch Festival
http://www.schoenegg-variete.ch
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For string instruments, modular synthesizer, digital delay, 2017 – Stereo Version
A Black Box in cybernetics denotes a complex system that in context can only be observed by outside observation. How to observe Solitude? A state of seclusion or isolation is the base of these revolving systems that understand archives of solitude to be records that have been generated as a product of negative effects in a symbolic sense.
Tom Withal, cello | Bernd Schurer, electronics
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